hanadzul_In the shadows of my mind . I see him just the way he used to be . When I'm alone at night , and I turn off the lights , he goes walking through the shadows of my mind . He's just a guy I used to know a long , long time ago . I did he wrong just one too many times , now every single night when I try to close my eyes . He goes walking through the shadows of my mind . I've been trying to forget , but I haven't forgotten yet , through the day I seem to make it fine . 

hanadzul_Don’t hang out with people who don’t love u . Don’t try to impress people who aren’t worth it . Don’t try to win people over who aren’t worth it . Focus on urself , and focus on the people who are really awesome and who love u . Don’t hang out with people who make u feel like shit . Don’t spend ur energy on them . There is so much pressure to be part of the right thing . well , u should create the right thing . If u don’t see it , create it . If u don’t see what u want , be the change u want to see .

hanadzul_I think about how there are certain people who come into your life, and leave a mark. And I don’t just mean that they change you. A lot of people can change you - the first kid who called you a name, the first teacher who said you were smart, the first person who crowned you best friend. It’s the change you remember, the firsts & what they meant, not really the people. I’m talking about the ones who, for whatever reason, are as much a part of you as your own soul. Their place in your heart is tender; a bruise of longing, a pulse of unfinished business. Just hearing their names pushes and pulls at you in a hundred ways, and when you try to define those hundred ways, describe them even to yourself, words are useless. If you had a lifetime to talk, there would still be things left unsaid.

hanadzul_At this age, everything is changing. Day by day we don’t notice, but just look back over the past year and you will realize everything has. People you thought were going to be there forever aren’t, and people you never imagined you’d be speaking to are now some of your closest friends. Life makes little sense, and the more we grow the less sense it will make. So make the most of it now, before it all changes once again, because in the near future, all of this is only going to be memories.

• poemsporn_“To whoever loves me next,
  I’m sorry if I’m afraid of you
or if days of flirting turn to
radio silence, without warning.
I’m sorry if I make you say the words
over and over and over until I believe them.
(I’m sorry if I don’t believe them.)
I will probably spend more time
worrying about losing you than I spend
trying to keep you. Trouble is,
every single time I’ve ever thought
something was too good to be true–
I’ve been right.
Understand,
I will know how to be vulnerable with you,
but I won’t know how not to regret it.
And I have no idea how deep we’ll be
into this relationship before I admit
I’ve never done this before.
Not really.
Not in any way that counts.
Before I admit that I know
how to put my body inside someone else’s
but not how to make it beautiful.
I probably won’t be easy to love.
Too many people loved me badly,
I’m not sure I know how
to do it right.”
  —TO WHOEVER LOVES ME NEXT by Ashe Vernon (via latenightcornerstore)

poemsporn_“Today I thought of you
 . You seem to never slip out of my mind . 
It almost feels as if my mind has become a broken record and so happens to have put you on repeat
 . I think of your lips, your eyes, your body . 
I think of our hands interlocked, cuddling for hours, and acting like little kids 
I think of going on dates, skipping work, and pretending to be sick so you can come home too
I think of rolling over on my side and seeing your beautiful face . 
My mind is consumed of the single thought of you . 
I think of you way too much
 , I think of everything I have lost, yet is it a lost . 
Am I just being oblivious to what could come next
 . Do I miss you , or the dear memories you left behind? 
I’m not surprised you have broken my heart , 
I know that its time that will heal me and time is what will simply make you memories I only miss and think about at 3 in the morning
 . I can’t seem to see every single possibility right now and I have no idea what awaits me , but dare if I don’t take the time to , never will I find myself letting go, like you let me go”
—psychoticmindd